Monday, October 19, 2009


In more ways than one. I have bracelets sitting here to be mailed out but the universe sat on top of us over the weekend and so I haven't had a chance to take them to the post office. (Because the envelopes are puffy, they are "not machinable" and so each one has to be weighed and stamped individually. An impossible task to accomplish with two preschoolers in tow!) They will get out to you soon though, so we thank you for your patience and again for your generosity.

Obviously we had a rough weekend. EVERYONE here had a rough weekend. Phil is home and is on the mend but is still not 100%. He says his pain is a 1 or 2, which would mean a 6 or 7 for those of us who do not have super-human strength. My parents came over yesterday to give us some time alone to process what's been going on and we came to the conclusion that we were naive to think Phil would just breeze through chemo because he is "young and healthy"... which is what everyone always tells us. The truth is, he isn't healthy. Look at his medical file. We were broadsided this weekend and truly never saw it coming, but the best thing we can do now is take some time to rest, pick ourselves up and keep pushing forward. Your sincere prayers, positive energy and heartfelt encouragement strengthen our family when we feel we don't have the energy to fight. Thank you.

I began having some pretty strong contractions last night which have subsided today thanks to the prayers of my warriors, a good night's sleep and lots of water.

My children are having a rough time today, particularly Iris. They are young, so much of this goes over their heads, but they are wise and sensitive enough to know when things aren't right. Today they are getting lots of cuddles and snuggles and kisses and hugs.

This week is Phil's week off of chemo. We'll be taking a step back from this blog for the week as well. (Thanks for the encouragement here, J.O.) It's important that we take this week to be still and quiet and try to gain back the peace that was lost in our home over the last few days.

We plan to be back next week with an update so we encourage you to check back then.

"One can pay back the loan of gold, but one dies forever in debt to those who are kind." -Malayan Proverb

Thank you all for your kindness, encouragement and grace. Love to all.

Cassie and Phil


paul said...
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Kindred Spirit said...

My prayers for you continue. I hope that you all get some rest. May God bless you and keep you safe.

Z said...

Take it easy this week. You are definitely facing this latest set of challenges the right way. As always, we are just across town (and hopefully not just across the hospital) whenever you need a hand. Take care, guys.

tim's wife said...

Closing ranks when it all gets too much is a coping mechanism
we use too. We stay home, order in,
rent some movies and do the couch potato thing. And lots of cuddling too. Tim just loves that part.
(eye roll) Enjoy!

Amy said...

Thanks for the updates. Have been thinking of you guys often--isn't the Internet an amazing thing?

Praying for a peaceful few days for you all. Mwah!

Jessica said...

cassie-i can come by today and drop the envies at the post for you. i'll call. jess

Heather said...

Thank for your blog. It is inspiring to read. Loved the comment about prunes and laxatives! It is important to share tips. Do you have a support system/ group in your area? There is a good list of support groups here:
Hope this helps. Good Luck

Becky said...

Yes, you need a break! Why not let some things slide, like, say, hygiene? Just cuddle up in a pile and stay there.

Jill said...

Sending love and hugs!

Carol said...

I've been worried about you. I'm glad to know you're home and you and your family are getting some rest. Stay strong, the love of God, family and friends will get you through this. Thank for your posts.Carol